Based on real events.
One hundred eighth-graders fill a small gym. It is the required dance at the end of the year. They weren’t grinding and rebellious. It was sanitized and supervised. Strobe lights danced around the room. The bass was overbearing.
Each clique found an area to loiter. Ben lounged on the wooden bleachers at one end of the gym with the boys who didn’t have girlfriends or any other motivation to enjoy themselves. Ben’s peers had been dating since fourth grade, but he never found it in himself to try.
Two cute popular girls had attracted a following. They said they were going to kiss each other, so the boys followed them like puppies. Ben knew nothing would happen, but that didn’t stop him from following for a bit. He resigned back to the bleachers and watched people dance. Ben created conversations over the lips of people talking nearby. Brent the basketball player wanted to dance with someone.
“What about Jessica?”
Luke and Ben were scouting for the perfect girl for Brent. They didn’t have girlfriends of their own, so they needed some way to look cool and confident. Brent disapproved of Jessica.
“Nah, man. What are those, A-cups?”
They went back to the hunt. There were girls on the bleachers as well. They looked bored too, but they tried harder to hide their desperation for a mate. The DJ said a slow song was coming up. They would have to try even harder to look self-assured and avoid any potential dance requests from ugly girls. It was a good time for a bathroom break.
The bathrooms were in the hallway outside of the gym. The chaperones had put barriers up at the ends of the hall to avoid misbehavior, but there was still space to mingle in a quieter way. There was only one other boy in the bathroom. Jeff Schmidt was one of the cool boys. The kind that weren’t total jerks but took advantage of their privileged status in the pecking order. Ben didn’t talk to these boys much—he hardly talked at all—but the year’s end provoked conversation.
Ben never started a conversation. He only made eye contact. Luckily Jeff was social.
“Hey, Ben. You hear Jenna and Renee are gonna kiss?”
He remembered his name. “They haven’t yet?”
“Nah, but it’ll happen. Stay tuned.”
Ben tried to look like he didn’t love talking with the cool kids. He didn’t want to geek out when they chose to talk to him. That wouldn’t have been cool. Ben came out of the bathroom with confidence. He didn’t really want to go back to the dance. He wanted to reenter the scene and observe and hope for something cool to happen and watch the cool kids do their thing and sit on the bleachers and share in miserable camaraderie with his friends. But he also didn’t want to go back for all of those reasons. It was tiring, that whole dance of middle school socialization. He didn’t know he was an introvert. It was a chore to look confident while really being desperate.
Ben stood in the hall and looked at the wall trying to decide his fate. Laura walked out of the dance laughing with a friend. She enjoyed being there enough for the both of them. Her friend entered the bathroom but Ben caught Laura’s eyes and she stayed.
“Hey, Ben. What’re you doing out here?”
“Just going to the bathroom. I was about to go back in.”
She studied him like a specimen. He didn’t want to keep up the dance. Luckily she took the next step.
“Would you want to dance with me?”
Holy shit. Wait, let her finish.
“Maybe at the next slower song?”
Ben knew he would botch the delivery, but he had no choice. “Uh…yeah…I guess.”
Her friend reappeared and the girls reentered the darkness. “Okay, I’ll see you in there.”
Ben had never danced with a girl he liked before. He had never even danced before. Maybe her friends put her up to it. He had to get out of it somehow. Maybe he would fake sickness. His innocent affection for her was overruled by his powerful willingness to avoid awkward interaction. Yet there he stood, wondering how he let himself speak without permission from his superego.
Ben slipped back into the dance. The strobes still danced and the bass was still overbearing. He zeroed in to Laura and planed his route to the bleachers accordingly. Luke and Brent were still there scouting.
“Guys, Laura Hall just asked me to dance.”
Luke choked on his soda. “And you said yes?”
Ben nodded. Luke knew he had never dated before.
“Oh, my God. You’re totally fucked. Now she’ll want to date you. You’re so fucked.”
He tried to look amused and in control. He didn’t want to date her. He didn’t even want to dance with her. She wasn’t ugly. Maybe dating wouldn’t be that bad. He had never done it before. It was just a dance. All he could think about was the next song. Please, DJ, just give me more time. He kept his eyes on Laura and her crew. They were laughing and dancing. It was the kind of self-assured dancing girls do. They danced and laughed and drank their soda. Ben cycled through his options. He couldn’t escape to the bathroom again. The chaperones wouldn’t let them leave. He couldn’t hide from her the whole night. He would have to face the music and dance.
The DJ put on “I Knew I Loved You” by Savage Garden. That bastard.
“All right, everybody. Ladies’ choice, ladies’ choice. Don’t be shy, guys.”
Laura broke away from her pack. She knew exactly where he was. She had watched him the entire night. She would finally see the final act of her devious plan to dance with him come to fruition. Ben looked to his friends for something, anything.
“Dude, you’re so screwed. Good luck, man.”
Brent was already dancing with a girl. He had finally decided on one. It was easy for him. He already had his hands at her waist, slowly crawling in. They were swaying like marsh reeds. Ben looked back at Laura. She was closing in fast. His exits were blocked, his friends were traitors, and his crush had found her prey. There was nothing he could do. Unless…
“Hey, Ben. Wanna dance now?”
“I, uh, can’t.”
“Why not?” She grabbed his arm and tried to rope him in.
“Uh, sorry, but I’m feeling really sick right now.”
He clutched his stomach for dramatic effect.
“What? You seemed fine a minute ago.”
“I know, but I just feel really sick, and I don’t want to throw up on you.”
“You won’t. It’s fine. Just—”
“Seriously. I just can’t dance. Sorry.”
Laura retreated back to her friends, who were already dancing with other boys. Ben didn’t care about hurting her feelings. All he thought about was escape, survival. He held his stomach and looked consternated. He wasn’t enjoying himself anyway.